Wednesday, September 30, 2009
Cupid's Chronicles:: Alex: Lust is easy, Love is hard, Like is most important, Part II
Ahhhh what do I do? I tried people...seriously I tried. I did the whole "re-light the flame" shit, and it has not worked. What worries me more is that I want to one day marry this man because he is everything my soul desires. So what is the problem you may ask? Well.... here is my confession: my ex has arrived on the scene. Yes, he popped up and has me more confused. I try to remind myself, "Self, you guys broke up for a reason!", but just the very thought of being "naughty" has me curious.
Yea, yea, yea I already know what you are thinking..."you are not married nor obligated to your boyfriend". Well what if I do it, and it sucks? I will feel worse than before, but...what if I fulfill my curiosity and it is the experience of a lifetime? That makes it okay right? lol
Listen to me trying to convince myself to do bad. When in reality it is the LUST that is driving my hormones, and it is that same LUST I am trying to get back in my relationship. So once again I am back to my original question, how do I get the LUST back with the man I actually LOVE?