Monday, October 12, 2009
Cupid's Chronicles:: Alex: Was lust worth it?
Wham Bam and 20 minutes later... we were done. Time to go… and all I could say was "thanks".... wtf?
Driving back home I put it on 102.1 and my heart was beating with music. But this was not the heart beat of love... it was the heartbeat of shame. I felt like throwing up right there in my car on the freeway. The rain began to pour down and the sky was grey ... and right then I felt like I sold my soul for lust, for those 20 minutes of passion. My hand was on the steering wheel and I couldn’t stop shaking. No tears though, no crying... just one simple thing, GUILT!
Well I got my lust...now I wish I only had the love of my boyfriend.
What am I suppose to do, go home and kiss him? That's disgusting...so I took the coke I had in my car spilled it all over my lap, so when I walked in I had an excuse to go straight to bathroom and take a shower, hoping the water will cleanse the shame.